Saturday, October 1, 2011

OK, I'm Admitting

I am admitting that I am not perfect. So what you say. No big deal. Ahh, but it is a big deal. But not in the way you might be thinking.

 It's not that I wish I were pefect. Sure, I used to want that. Or I thought I did. I thought it was possible. But I can't even define what a perfect person is or does. People that think they are perfect, or close to it, are really just stuck in place.

Imperfection is growth. It still has potential and possibilities. Imperfection is not afraid. I love imperfection that has a positive and yet a relaxed attitude. I have seen growth in myself, especially in the last few years. I had grown tired of being whatever I was supposed to be for others. It definitely wasn't working. I wasn't even sure that my efforts were going to be accepted, let alone appreciated. That's not a good feeling. Unsure. Hesitant. Doubtful. That was me. Because no matter how I added up my list of efforts, accomplishments or attempts . . . my bottom line of perfection just was never enough. It was never going to be any more than that. Attempts. You see, I forgot the major quotient in the math problem. ME. The more I am not striving for perfection, the more I can strive for being realistic, being better, being sincere. The less I worry about perfect, the more I can use my energy to just do. I don't believe I might fail.  I believe I will grow. I will be more because everything I do adds to my worth. I am open to knowing I might fail, but I probably won't. I will accomplish more than I thought. I am not afraid. I am enlightened. I am inspired. I am confident. Happiness comes from inside factors, not outside ones. I finally figured out how to do the math story problem that I always disliked. Add a "genuine" me to the total. I'm discovering that maybe math isn't so bad after all.


  1. Lovely post, and quite timely for me.

  2. Dena Wilton said...
    very well said, growth is for eternity, a never ending path. Acceptance of 'me' is the gateway of the journey that is intended... petals must unfold naturally or they will fall. Growth is acceptance... acceptance is growth.

    Thank you for the honesty of your words. i am grateful.

  3. Man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.
    Ever read those words? It in our imperfection is where we hear the word that comes from the mouth of God most clearly. Those are the areas in our lives where we grow.
    We would all love to be perfect but if we are perfect what need do we have of grace?
    Arithmetic I like, maths, not so. I'm a practical man and find the way through practical means, not spending hours trying to work out a theory on how to get it done. I leave that for those who enjoy maths :)
    Have a blessed day, Geoff.